Chuckling through Chitrasanthe 2018

Growing into one of the biggest art event for public on an annual basis, Chitrasanthe is a platform created by the College of Fine Arts, Karnataka Chitrakala Parishat for a showcase of work by artists spread over varied age groups and mediums. What is interesting to see in such a showcase not restricted to art students, amateur and practising artists and being open to a larger public audience – sometimes overwhelmed by the massive range of this exhibit giving rise to spontaneous comical instances.

Take the example of how art is priced, and how the perception on investing in a piece of original art is very different among people. Here’s where a ton of factors like the general exposure and awareness of a fine arts related field, the attention towards details, effort and time taken to create the artwork, the conceptualisation itself of the piece as opposed to only rendering or reproducing an existing work come into play. Can such an event be a better means of exposure and awareness to the common man, over a long period of time? Perhaps yes? However, here’s a quick doodled documentation from some of the comical instances from the 2018 edition!

Artifying musical instruments

Whether it’s as a souvenir of a locally made instrument or something enjoyed to be listened to, played and learnt, there is something exciting about creating art on musical instruments.

Apart from being highly personal with the art form to be rendered on the body of the instrument, this also involves considering the base material on which the inks/paints need to adhere to, and it’s subsequent effects on acoustics.

An important factor to consider would be if the instrument would be frequently in use once the painting is complete, in which case ample time is necessary for the painted surface to be left completely undisturbed. This made a huge difference in reducing smudge marks, dust or fingerprints showing up over the painted surface.

For the ones frequently in use, considering a layer or two of varnish to coat the dried painted surface is a good way of protecting the artwork from sweat, stains and dust. Repainting can be done at intervals if necessary, and having old rags, newspapers, blotting paper or tissues comes in very handy with smudges or those inevitable spontaneous mistakes in the artwork.

Inktober 2017

After many many conversations with people on interesting perspectives of common challenges in an ever changing culturally and economically diverse society, I’ve decided to share a selected few visualised as illustrations accompanied by verses in my #inktober2017 series – Breakaway. While most of them aren’t unheard of, their impact spread over different levels is much larger than what I could imagine. As much as it has been a personal learning, I hope to be able to engage with more conversions that could unveil fresh ways of encountering these challenges.

Offering the young Kanya

Kumkum on auspicious days

She welcomed home 

Her neighbour’s daughter 

But not her own

That was aborted, killed.

When just a few weeks old,

Hoping it was better fate than

Being raised a girl in this world.

Day 1: Female Foeticide

While we have many auspicious occasions and rituals celebrating the sacred feminine, it is surprising to see that daughters and granddaughters are still not welcomed into the world simply because of their gender. India witnesses one of the highest female foeticide incidents in the world with an average of 2,300 girls killed in the womb every single day by gender selective abortion – mostly rooted in the unfortunately still prevalent practices of dowry, making daughters a default unaffordable economic burden. While it is encouraging to have measures from the government supporting education of the girl child like Beti Bachao, Beti Padhao or savings schemes like Balika Samriddhi Yojana, many of the abortions continue to happen unreported. Further, when gender selective abortion is banned, there is a tendency of people flocking to other nations where these procedures are still legal, giving rise to what is termed ‘reproductive tourism’ solely to suit the preference for a son.

Earnest learning

Passionate work

& a good heart

Took the backseat

He was made 

To be all about 

The number of digits 

On his paycheque.

Day 2: Money over matter

A good friend was discussing with me recently about grooms being expected to have unnecessarily humongous salaries to the point where the boundaries separating essential living necessities from added conveniences are constantly shifting and blurring. For those like him who have grown up in the midst of years of war, or have come up from scratch, perhaps have their outlook of differentiating these more clearly. What is defined as ‘lower’ income has been associated with societal status and for being an eligible marriage candidate. Among youth in India, studies show that 65% of the youth between ages 22-25 are showing signs of early depression and lower levels of mental wellness being exposed to such pressures from different sources within and outside of their homes. What is disturbing to note is the fact that someone’s hard earned money is being taken for granted to be able to fulfill a bride’s personal splurging habits or other extravagant luxuries. While there are cases where this has been possible and willingly agreed upon by both, attaching much importance to such acts leaves behind a perceived threat of being unacceptable and worthless to others who may not fit this bill – leading to clinical depression and suicidal tendencies in severe cases. Isn’t being financially independent and making ends meet in itself to be appreciated? How about marrying for love for a change, or maybe compatibility, if not anything else?

Unable of being 

a mother

is not the one with 

an empty womb

but an empty heart.

Day 3: Motherhood and Adoption 

It takes much responsibility, care and love to raise a child. More so, an open mind and a full heart to adopt one raise him as one’s own. And while those wonderful folks enthusiastically willing to welcome an orphaned child into their home and bring him up as their own are open to this idea, it may not necessarily be the outlook shared by the extended family, neighbours or friends – who basically form the secondary network of people that the child is surrounded by as he grows up. An outward retaliation of this negative attitude towards adopted children, for no fault of their own, can hamper personal growth and self esteem levels very early on. The stigma associated with orphaned kids possibly being from a ‘lower caste’ or an unplanned pregnancy or rape, is quite rampant. With this narrow minded thinking, we fail to embrace a child for what he is – a young growing individual with immense potential of his own, a life that can be shaped with love, care and good upbringing from the early years, just like every other child. How much better things can get with realising that the process of adoption is not confined to the roles played by mothers or parents alone, but extending to all of us to create an environment for these children to grow, learn and thrive. Also, in the last few years, the Central Adoption Resource Authority or CARA has been working on making the adoption process more transparent and smooth, with specifics on how it works for single parents, couples, residents, non-Indian parents, and for older or special needs children. While there is scope for further improvement with the formal processes, what we can each hold ourselves responsible is to embrace this change within ourselves. And to all those women out there who have constantly battled painful personal health issues and being unable to conceive children, over which come a multitude of disturbing societal pressures, or for opting for adoption by choice, you are a rare bunch of the strongest and most beautiful souls we will get to see. The world needs more love, and more of your lot ❤️ 

In school, was it only

lessons learnt by heart, 

or moving to college,

about a graduation hat?

Or later at work, 

with a certificate course?

But what if you really loved

were in none of those?

Surely, there is time

to pursue skills that churn

work with the kind of joy

only you’ll yearn.

It is never to late

to learn something new.

Thought to be lead by fate,

but by more of you.

Day 4: Education and continued learning 

Being a graduate student in my art college made me see my own classroom in new light – with a wonderful diversity of enrolled students, each involved in exploring new learnings in their own way. Engineering and MBA grads back in college, having completed the perceived ‘safe’ courses and are hence permitted to try their hand at something they are actually interested in. College drop-outs from other courses that they might have been persuaded to take up, and which might have not worked out for them at all. Young moms barely reaching class after dropping off their kids to school. Working folks juggling between freelancing and devoting time aside for learning. Or successful entrepreneurs and businessmen taking a break from work to return to something they couldn’t pursue before in their earlier given circumstances. All this, part of being involved in a continuous learning process for career and personal growth in a fast-paced world turning everything obsolete in very short spans of time. How beautiful, the struggle to pursue learning for life itself! 

We bleed the same colour,

You and I.

Yet with this diversity 

To live by

That we fail to celebrate,

To look within,

And break free from

Confines of coloured skin

For in a beautiful mind

and a good heart, may we find

Beauty, self worth, life and joy,

The things that matter, to really live by,

For we bleed the same colour, 

You and I.

Day 5: Celebrating complexions 

I had spent the last few days checking out video tutorials on playing the Ukulele, a completely new instrument for me to attempt to learn, and every second minute of trying to get a new chord in place would be interrupted by a naive non-skippable ad assuring me with outmost confidence that I can now become ‘Fairer in 5 days’. If I can go by these claims, the results of this fairness exercise would be marked by an elderly woman taking the very randomly but surely present ‘nazar’ or evil eye off me. Or menfolk I pass by giving me a seemingly mesmerised second glance that goes on till I am at the end of the horizon. (Quite alarming for an introvert, really) Or seeing myself being heartily congratulated by successful people in their dapper business formals on an even more unrealistically successful boardroom meeting. All this in a supposed acknowledgment of my new better fairer self catalysing all my supposedly worthy life goals at a revolutionary pace that the planet has never witnessed before. Unfortunately a silly video is not the end of this narrow minded thinking. Art gallery walk throughs at an international exhibit had volunteers enthusiastically taking foreigners around and explaining details, while a couple of us with questions were brushed aside-how our brown Indian skin would make us any less a learner compared to our white counterparts is still unclear to me. Within India itself, the unnatural obsession with fairness is rampant from instances like grandparents calling to check on if their new born grandchild is fair, rather than if the mother and child are healthy, to matrimonial sites filing suitability of brides and grooms on the criteria of ‘fair skin’ or ‘medium fair complexion'(?!). How about celebrating colour for a change, and focussing on creating a good life for ourselves and others?

We are silent conversers. 

We are familiar strangers.

We are alone together.

Day 6: Support systems 

There are people living with their own personal difficulties where everyday is a fight and the worst is expected unannounced at any moment. And the next day, the fight starts all over again. There are so many phases in life that we can’t truly understand unless we experience them ourselves. But we can try. To anyone out there with someone around you battling difficult personal or medical situations but not knowing what to say or do, and therefore thinks it is best to stay away till tough times pass, please don’t. If you’ve asked what you can do and aren’t given any clear direction in reply, do what you can anyway. Leave groceries at their door. Bring coffee. Turn up for a hug when you pass by and leave. Offer to take turns to watch over kids, or grandparents, or while they take a nap. Ask them if they need help in paying bills or in getting to the hospital. Or if they want to talk, or just sit together in silence. Please don’t assume that you are on the same journey as everyone else. Or ask ‘What’s wrong?’ just for a curiosity to know but do nothing. Because sometimes, it’s not about enlightening someone to believe in sunshine and rainbows, but about a wonderful person who didn’t deserve any of it.

What one would need

To master an art

Is neither age nor gender

But a passionate heart.

Day 7: Learning beyond gender

I happened to overhear a conversation between two mothers after a fine evening of watching kathak performances, where one of them seemed to have thoroughly enjoyed watching how artists unraveled stories on stage with their performances. She happily exclaimed that she would want to see if her child would be interested in learning the same, which her friend affirmed was a good idea. And in which case she would undoubtedly consider a good dance school or instructor around for him, and by this time her friend was more than alarmed. Trying to express the same, she insisted that since it was about a male child, Kathak would be a misfit as it ‘seems more suited for girls’. Following which the conversation proceeded to trying out classes in breakdance, but then there was the question of if it would be considered ‘dignified’. A mutual agreement was reached on getting the son to try out the keyboard, a fair negotiation between being a perpetually crazy rockstar-ish guitarist types and more modern compared to the harmonium, a now mute family heirloom probably lying forgotten in a cobwebbed attic corner. It is surprising to see how the choice of classes went about beginning with what the child would be interested in learning to what would be perceived of the child when well versed with the chosen art form! From Kathak virtuoso and Padma Vibhushan awardee Pandit Birju Maharaj to one of India’s first female freestyle hip hop/street dancers Priya Lisa Gonsalves, the deftness in their performances reflect years of passion, toil and failures bringing them to great heights. So why bend a learner’s interest with gender?

Why should she be

Shamed for the stain,

While gruelling through days

Of cramps and period pain?

The natural life-giving cycle,

Is far from a bane,

Maybe a reminder to respect 

Her strength and beauty again?

Day 8: Stigma over menstruation

I’m shocked by the number of women at family gatherings and other occasions constantly questioning school going girls, or their mothers in front of them on if they have reached the onset of menstruation. Mostly in comparison to another relative’s daughter or one of a rather unknown acquaintance. If yes, the discussion proceeds to marriage with a tentative list of known boys around the same age group, and to childbirth. If not, it continues to dietary supplements or rituals that they believe will ‘help’. Is this creating an atmosphere of unnecessary pressure around young girls, who instead need to know how each of their bodies grow at their own pace? And a need to be assured that education, work, financial independence and aspirations should take the front seat instead of being treated like a reproduction machine? At the same gathering I was pointed out a pimple on my cheek and warned that I should manage to somehow hide it under thick layers of makeup, lest someone discovered it and concluded that I was ‘matured’. Scientifically why it would be a colossally shocking revelation to know that a girl in her mid twenties is in the phase of experiencing menstrual cycles every month, I still don’t know. And because many seem ignorant of this to be treated just for how beautiful it is as a natural biological cycle, a health indicator and a life-giving process, it is buried in stigma and superstition. This is also largely a cause of girls dropping out of high school among economically backward and lesser educated communities, a huge set back to education of girls. Further, the classification of something as essential as sanitary napkins as a ‘luxury’ item under the new GST rules being implemented from this year in India has caused its price rise, pushing basic menstrual hygiene products further away from being affordable and practical for those below middle class status in the society. At this rate, how long will it take to raise awareness levels?

Pity her not

When her mind is waning

With the pain of hurt and loss

Weighing down her heart.

Abandon her not,

For her apparent incapabilities

Of no conscious thoughts.

Will it’s cure ever see daylight?

Pity me instead,

That my young heart is slow,

In sailing through surges of tears

Flooding through a broken home

Over strewn wreckage and moss laden hope,

That you might come back, someday.

Day 9: Mental Health Awareness 

Ever shared your space with someone suffering from clinical depression, hallucinations, schizophrenia or dementia? The challenges faced by both the caretakers and the patients are immense, and what makes it worse is a completely unnecessary negative perception of approaching counsellors, psychiatrists or mental health experts-and how this lack of awareness or action or both result in tearing down families and relationships. It seems quite obvious, for instance, that we approach a dentist to check on tooth aches or an ENT specialist to have a persistent flu examined. There are often personal challenges which seem to have no definite solution no matter how much we ponder over them, and in situations of extreme emotional connections and self-doubt, a good counsellor is a great way to discover an impartial perspective and a way forward to counter these issues. Annually the 10th of October is observed as World Mental Health Day, and living through times witnessing unfortunate Blue Whale deaths with kids to reckless gun firing sprees by adults, it becomes all the more important for us to watch over ourselves and others for symptoms of low self esteem and depression early enough and seek help from the right people before being engulfed completely. Dedicated to all the docs out there proving the negative stigma on mental health wrong with their dedication and patience in individual therapies, the caregivers for supplementing efforts in the recovery process, and the hustlers who have a new lease of life to live to the fullest.

Between creativity and commerce

Yesterday was special. Yesterday reminded me of chaos and struggle involved with pursuing art forms when surrounded by those whom it holds neither heart nor soul. More so, about parents, elders and friends who have cut down their time in this struggle of their individual pursuits, only to be able to devote the same effort and energy into ensuring that the interests of their children and the younger generation take priority. Yesterday brought together both young and old to the stage for us to sway into a delightful dimension of expressive melodies, and stood as an ode to the spirit of learning – the kind that makes one experience and appreciate the unending beauty and emotion in this world, while making one a better person from the heart. Yesterday made me believe that stealing away a few minutes for ourselves with our art practice everyday, somehow, is all it could take for a sense of inner peace, self rejuvenation and a content life in our days furiously  trampling upon us with its inevitable pressing necessities. For it has been nearly 20 years seeing Amma get back on stage with the Saraswathi Veena, and I have never seen her look more radiant and beautiful. Yesterday was special.


Thank you for freezing this beautiful memory for us, Prashanth Sharma Photography. You’re the best. And a heartfelt kudos to the Indiranagar Sangeeta Sabha, School of Performing Arts, for consistently doing a fantastic job of imbibing learning and interest in classical arts to students of diverse age groups and backgrounds. The weekend was a delight with this Annual Day program!

When you tell people you want to do your graduation in Visual Arts

It’s that time of the year again with students awaiting admissions to colleges and enrolling for courses of interest. And it’s surprising that year after year, students wanting to pursue unconventional or creative fields end up confronting unnecessary questions, one too many. That said, we are fortunate to have met talented writers, photographers, artists, fashion designers and a host of other creative folks who have shared learnings of their craft and nudged us to look beyond veils of these confrontations, and that has personally been a striking inspiration. More power to you folks! Meanwhile, here’s a tiny doodled series on general responses of folks towards students in the similar pursuit, not sure if we have more ridiculously interesting ones to add to these questions?


Postcards and pasts

I love postcards and photographs, they’re my earliest memories of dad, and his very existence. I can vividly recollect myself as a toddler crawling all around home repeatedly in search of him, peeking behind doors and through windows, lingering around the room and balconies, hoping to spot him somewhere around. And the sudden trembles of anxiety that consumed me completely from the sight of an aeroplane flying past the blue sky above, Amma had said that an aeroplane would bring him back here, although it only seemed to be lost gliding into suffocating clouds every time. And she teaching me numbers, while I attempted counting the number of days he would take to be back from a feeble wall calendar hanging beside the sewing machine. Between these were those joyous days of receiving picture postcards and letters from Gottingën, the quaint distant land that became his second home, and these were all I knew of him then. He took delight in shooting on film too, and frozen moments of life in the countryside, seasonal blossoms, adorable dogs and cats and whimsical streetsides joined the blaze of postcards on my living room wall in a quiet struggle of holding themselves glued as layers of pictures continued to get added, with most including a little drawing of birds or trees he made for me along with a ‘See you soon!’ written at the bottom. How soon – was my forever question. The kids in my neighbourhood old enough to go to school cheerily waved to us while amma carried me around our balcony to feed tiny little sparrows she fed religiously every morning, and all these kids seemed to have a dad who emerged right from their homes to drop them off in the often grudgingly working Bajaj Chetaks or TVS Lunas. I missed him. The shaky ‘trings’ accompanying the rattling cycle of the postman at intervals were my most awaited divine interventions, arriving on the lucky days with these pieces of parchment that were timely assurances of my dad being around somewhere and remembering us between his busy overworked days. And that meant the world to me.

Barriers that embrace: from Kochi-Muziris Biennale 2016-17

Musings from my first Kochi Biennale wanderings.

Something as simple as the slow splash of waves against your ferry can meander off into an absent-minded gleeful smile when you are taking in the experience as an outsider, unlike the routine commuters – more familiar, more purposeful. But its when you step out at Fort Kochi that you’ll be surprised how easily you slip into feeling at home.


Kochi beckons not only artists, writers, connoiseurs, students, tourists and thousands of visitors with open arms during the biennale season, but also fresh ideas that adorn her alongside the wall art from previous years that are lovingly treasures. She flanks you with colourful surprises throughout her humble streets and before you know it she has left you busy absorbing lines, forms and colours, an act of immersing you into art long before you arrive at a venue housing an exhibit. So, the more you trudge past the tree-sheltered boulevards abuzz with charming little cafes, shops, carts, hawkers, pazham pori, birds, goats and cattle; the more she lets you encounter new visuals and , perhaps, have you mentally reorder your list of favourite works all over again, tugging you to experience beyond the prevailing humidity. For the art here feels so raw, and real, unlike my fake silk scarf tied to my bag.


You will then spot the ubiquitous RGB shades, typeforms made of strokes, and (as our auto driver described it) the windmill-ish icon: the official visual identity of the event, where spaces in Kochi welcome you to the venues you originally intended to begin your art encounters at. You will also find mildly faded hues on some wall sections with peeling paint patches from the previous few events – and between these avatars of fresh and faded visual identity lie visual and textual content to be dissected. (Anyone else who’s a fan of the old-school handpainted type? Surely lots more to love about Kochi with this edition!) What is incredible is this entire mix of elements from the event’s identity coupled with visuals and text forming a strikingly distinct and cohesive visual identity in itself, and seems to function like a lot like a compass at a certain level by letting you navigate into the heart of the place based on how densely populated the bylanes are with them.


But there is more to the visuals that the walls of Kochi envelopes you with, both at exhibit venues and the surrounding hotels, restaurants and other spaces, beautifully overlapping with the hustling bustling daily life. Which is how she invites to you experiment with how you can document wall art, standing as testimony to the indefinite temporary presence of parked vehicles to people to cattle and birds. So, with the range of photographs that attempt to document the same can often accomplish more than just that – you can always, perhaps, spot the same piece of wall art, but never the same photograph. Can this also serve as a distinct visual identity throughout Fort Kochi, that outlives both the timeframe and the context of the biennale; merging into the thriving life and vigour her streets are alive with? For she has metamorphosed herself into an experience for you so selflessly, while she transcends containing art. You feel, she becomes.